Apologies and Explanation

well... firstly... i feel very bad for myself lately. lately i have been giving up on a lot of things i enjoy doing for the sake of other important things in my life... haiz.... a lot... i really mean a lot.

1. Not going to scouts
2. Not spending time with LK Brothers™
3. Not voicing out to the person i have feelings for
4. Not using computer on a daily basis


All this all for the sake of.... studies...
I really dunno... why is it that for my common test i wan to put in so much effort. i am stressed and pressurised by it. i am affected by it... i am afraid i can't do well....

Because of all these... i have to forgo my free time for studies. now with only Tues and Fri ending early like say 530. The other days is till 9. even on Sat. I have to put in this much.

This means i rightfully should progress... but... i dun want to progress alone and watch my frenz fall behind... the last time this happened was with LK. When i left the 5 behind and the other 3 jus to go JC. it hurts. so i really wish to push my fellow peers to study and work for what they should be obtaining. but i dunno if it is getting across to them. ppl like WX. whom i tot i did succeed... he seem to slow down again. and the others... i really can't keep asking ppl to study... they have to be self motivated.... you people have to be active so that i can help you guys...


As for Shawn and Clive. So sorry. Esp to Shawn. Really can't make it... my common test is jus 2 weeks away and i dun wan to over work myself. Jus to clarify. if i still go out on sunday. i will not get enuff rest and my body will fall sick. i dun wan to be sick for common test. so sorry. maybe another time. Clive.... so sorry we had to leave tt day. same reason. we need our rest. the following day we actually had to study day to night. therefore...we left early. there will be other opportunities de.... eh... but if you guys wan rite... every mon, wed, fri...if you guys can... do drop by SR outside at bout 9... we can go for some dinner tgt? i am sure it would be great to just see you guys standing outside waiting... haha... (*hint hint*) lol... but... ya... i am sure you guys noe the feeling when lets say after a tiring day... you turn the corner to see your Brothers standing there... the joy would be extreme.... Anyway...


Thanks a lot guys for being there for me always... see you guys around....