Many do not understand

well... i realised that many do not seem to understand why i am doing certain things.... well.... since i was teaching a friend as shared with her my life story, perhaps i should just upload it here for those who want to know why i am doing certain things.


Throughout my life, I have dedicated myself to helping others around me. Being able to help others bring me a great sense of joy and accomplishment as I seem to have made a big difference in their lives. Furthermore, helping others has given me many opportunities and ways to explore the vast world of chances.

At the time of my birth, I was as purple and hard as a rock. My umbilical cord was coiled two rounds around my neck and I was suffocated. In my religion, Buddhism, we believe this as a sign or a mark that symbolises the Buddha beads. At the age of 14, my dad retold this tale to me telling me that due to that, I should be living a life of giving and helping others. Since then, my life changed. I looked at things differently, I offered helping hands to those in need.

Ok... so now everyone noes... haha... well... anyway... yup... tt's the surface... the depth i dun wan type out... you can check personally with me...

To My Special You:
I have decided to wait on...

Love was never easy.
One has to be put through though times in order to love
Valuing you is one thing i have always done
Eternity is the word to describe my love to you

Yes... Its tough to love but i will endure it just to love you
Only true love brought me to say this...
U are the one for me. I Love You

Love it

lol... went out today with Yihui, Clive, Michelle, Shawn. lol... Hui Yee couldn't go cuz eye bleeding.. take care... haha... so we met and decided to watch movie... den realised Michelle was under 16 so cannot watch horror. den told Shawn we can go cathay and see more movie choices. so he said ok. not very long walk. bout 1km. so we walked. den i realised we were at the wrong cathay. i was talking bout The Cathay. We ended up at cine Cathay. haha... so we watched the chihuahua show. kinda hillarious. haha. in the midst of the movie. gave my sweater to Yihui as she was cold. so i was shivering. haha... ok... den after movie went to eat. met Gar fish at taka. den we went to PS cartel again. alot of laughter as always. den reached home and saw this on Yu Kiat's DP:
a=b
a^2=ab
a^2 + a^2 = a^2 + ab
2a^2 - 2ab = a^2 + ab - 2ab
2a^2 - 2ab = a^2 - ab
2(a^2 - ab) = 1(a^2 - ab)
2=1

looked at it.. den i realised it was a mathematical mistake for that to happen. cuz a^2 - ab = 0 and you can't divide an equation by 0 on both sides... haha... so 1 is not equals to 2...

and oso... Yihui made this special card for me... Thanks Yihui. Love You.
on one side, it looked like this:

From the other... it was like this:


haha... shall bring this to Melbourne with me... Thanks...
to the Special You:
No matter how long it is... i am going to wait... since it is for you.. it is worth it... i am prepared.... till the day you are ready... loving you always... and deeper by each passing day... take care while i am away... i love you...

What to do???

well... puzzled at the moment... i still try to force smiles in front of others... jus came home from scouts.. well... yihui was there... erm... so i started out reaching earlier than the rest... so sat there alone to play psp... (perhaps i have to get used to this alone kinda lifestyle....) following that... shawn came... so i decided to go into the room. so we had the leaders room key... feeling is different in tt room. afterall... i jus went in there to slack and waste time. so decided to make some notice boards for the scouts. Those you buy from daiso. so i had to put in the hooks mannually without a plier. so i did 2 boards.. and yihui's sms came... so decided to go over to talk to her. there... i continue making 3 more boards... haha.. hand really hurt.... den played with the mudskipper... fed it fish... but it din eat... played with a brown rabbit... nvr seen him b4... but.. it was rather cute... also.. i went to play bball with clive... den yihui came along... played a lil while more... shawn called... so we left... well... to yihui... i really dunno my emotions as of now... knowing very well that the year ahead i won't be able to be doing things to chase and win your heart... but my love for you is still there and won't change... i shall wait. ^.^ i won't give up... i hope... well... you should get what i mean.... anyway... thanks to jeff for the call last nite... haha.. next time... sch is more impt... i will be fine de... thanks buddy... and also to chesed who spent time talking on msn... and dong for your concern... thanks guys... well... to my brothers and scout juniors who read my blog... i may not be able to contact u all tt often and oso to see you all... if you guys wan to contact me or noe my updates... jus read my blog... it would be an avenue to talk and address your problems.... and for my S01 mates.. check your email with regards to plans for next year.

Happy or Sad?

since the last time i blogged... many things happened... i have also changed quite abit. setbacks in life are things that you have to face. they will change you and you can't change them. how unfair. well... i really wonder if i should go on persuing... can you yourself give me the answer?? you noe who i am refering to. Apart from that. i decided to dedicate my next year to a year of studies. really have to let go a lot this time. wasn't really prepared but will miss the nice people i used to hang out with. next year i won't be so on with scouting le. First 6 mths in H3 and last 6 in As. i really have to work hard. i tot over this for some time... perhaps its better that i sacrifice and persue a different dream. the dream YOU have always been wanting but failed to achieve. I shall do it for YOU. sorry to my bros for leaving on this sunday for melbourne as a mark of my leave from scouts as well. following my J2 year will be 2 years of NS. dun worry... i will be back after NS should my Uni years not be so taxing. i jus wan to persue the wish of my granddad first. its a long story. been affected by stuff lately. can't seem to smile that much. wonder wad happened.... its like the jokes that i hear people say... people laugh.. but i jus force a smile off my face... on msn... with some people... i jus appear joyous so that things seem right. with some of you... i jus try to put things aside and not spoil the mood of the crowd... well... i really dunno wad has happened.... i really feel weird and affected... can the key to my solutions appear?? or will it even come to me in the first place?

Success and thanks

Well, just returned from a chalet... a combined chalet.. haha... for the first time, i combined my 2 fav cliques of frenz together at a chalet.... My 2 cliques... LK brothers and my S01 small group. well... thanks to both groups for being so tolerent to each other... haha... erm... well.. it was a great success... great thanks to the follow people: -
MH - for behaving yourself... different from the violent you
Jus - for the laughter you gave us
Clive - for coming and being there even though its jus one night
Shawn - with the memorial videos for us
Frankie - your presence
KW - your presence
Brenda - sacrificced for the group to watch coffin.. so sorry bout the jokes bout you... but thanks for the sacrifice.. and very great thanks for bringing joy to the special someone
Danica - rushed down to meet us and spend one night with all of us... thanks for being there... haha... love bullying you.. haha... waking you up once every 5 mins... haha... erm... next time more sociable la...
Eileen - coming down for the BBQ... haha... din study lor!!!
YT - ps-ed me for teaching... haha... but still came for BBQ
William - for being very enthu and very sociable
Aloy - ever ready with games to play with us
Wei Dong - thanks for coming awhile and making fun for us
WX - for booking this chalet and running as co-planner along with me
Daryl - our supplies manager
Neo - Bday boy... haha... dunno wad to add
Yihui - always special... thanks for coming along... haha... really love being with you la... haha... the laughter we get... and you good planning for the BBQ when it was last minute... haha

well.... i hope to arrange another one of such outings for you guys again... i hope both cliques dun mind... LK brothers should be fine de... cuz u all very on de.. erm... my S01 clique... maybe must ask lor.. haha... next destination... buffet.. most likely... till then... so long... (BIRD!) lol... i mean till then... practice ur tai chi and dun spit milk... haha.... jus wait for my info... via email guys... will let you noe the plans and all...

den... a recap of wad happened...
Day 1
Night... arrived at White Sands with my clique... sorry to keep those already there waiting...
we decided to eat sth while waiting for the rest... about an hour wait... haha.. watching momorable videos from shawn and interaction time and bonding session.. haha... was fun... laughter filled.... den following tt.. the rest came.. we set off for the chalet... a long walk into our chalet at first... having arrived... 3 ppl needed the toilet.. but only got 1 toilet.. so william went first... followed by brenda den me.. haha... so later went to get movie tickets... bought 13 tickets... and sat at a hotdog fast food restaurant to eat sth... no appetite... so jus sat there.. with yihui on one table... both of us kena tua by the rest.. haha.. so she ate.. i jus sat there looking at her.. den ca arrived... called us.. den i recalled randy and his fren were with us.. so MH cheong to get 2 more tickets.... haha.. watched the coffin... sat beside yihui as usual... den jus watched... WX, Brenda, Danica, Justin were all afraid... a show with laughter as well... the scene where the guy almost kissed a girl... some one from behind gave an "ee" sounds.. real loud.. set the whole cinema laughing... den... later... WX poured pop corn on justin... damn funny... went back to chalet after movie... where i kept disturbing ca's sleep... went out for a while to get supplies for joy.. i went crazy.... sad tt yihui din go with us... haha... well... nvm... din sleep den went for cca

Day 2
back from cca to chalet with only justin and yihui... ate lunch at the same hotdog restaurant as yesterday. den went chalet to sleep... haha... yihui slept during my cca... she looked so cute la... beside her was a bed.. and on the other side a pile of mats... she chose to sleep on the floor without anything... haha... ok... woke up after sleeping.. played bridge... den went shopping for BBQ stuff and meet up with the rest... haha... well.. we decided to get some dinner... so erm ya... hotdog again.. haha... lol... ok.. den bought stuff den went back to chalet... haha... yihui left after a while... when mh was bbq-ing... den eileen, yt came... with their fren.. haha... den they had their own activity... while i join LK brothers for my other stuff... den... i knocked out.. fell asleep....

Day 3
weird... i was sleeping on the right while MH on the left... woke up... we were the other way around.. i was on the left.. he on the right..haha... couldn't explain tt... den we left the chalet... haha...

FUN FUN FUN!!!!! Love you all man... you guys make my life fun...

At this point... Aloysious.. all the best for your re-exam.. you can do it de.... haha


To my special someone.... Spending 2 days 1 night with you... is one of the best times i had... lol... thanks.. though not always by your side... but ur presence could mean a great diffference... haha... do join us forr other activities next time... haha... see you around...