What to do???

well... puzzled at the moment... i still try to force smiles in front of others... jus came home from scouts.. well... yihui was there... erm... so i started out reaching earlier than the rest... so sat there alone to play psp... (perhaps i have to get used to this alone kinda lifestyle....) following that... shawn came... so i decided to go into the room. so we had the leaders room key... feeling is different in tt room. afterall... i jus went in there to slack and waste time. so decided to make some notice boards for the scouts. Those you buy from daiso. so i had to put in the hooks mannually without a plier. so i did 2 boards.. and yihui's sms came... so decided to go over to talk to her. there... i continue making 3 more boards... haha.. hand really hurt.... den played with the mudskipper... fed it fish... but it din eat... played with a brown rabbit... nvr seen him b4... but.. it was rather cute... also.. i went to play bball with clive... den yihui came along... played a lil while more... shawn called... so we left... well... to yihui... i really dunno my emotions as of now... knowing very well that the year ahead i won't be able to be doing things to chase and win your heart... but my love for you is still there and won't change... i shall wait. ^.^ i won't give up... i hope... well... you should get what i mean.... anyway... thanks to jeff for the call last nite... haha.. next time... sch is more impt... i will be fine de... thanks buddy... and also to chesed who spent time talking on msn... and dong for your concern... thanks guys... well... to my brothers and scout juniors who read my blog... i may not be able to contact u all tt often and oso to see you all... if you guys wan to contact me or noe my updates... jus read my blog... it would be an avenue to talk and address your problems.... and for my S01 mates.. check your email with regards to plans for next year.