Many do not understand

well... i realised that many do not seem to understand why i am doing certain things.... well.... since i was teaching a friend as shared with her my life story, perhaps i should just upload it here for those who want to know why i am doing certain things.


Throughout my life, I have dedicated myself to helping others around me. Being able to help others bring me a great sense of joy and accomplishment as I seem to have made a big difference in their lives. Furthermore, helping others has given me many opportunities and ways to explore the vast world of chances.

At the time of my birth, I was as purple and hard as a rock. My umbilical cord was coiled two rounds around my neck and I was suffocated. In my religion, Buddhism, we believe this as a sign or a mark that symbolises the Buddha beads. At the age of 14, my dad retold this tale to me telling me that due to that, I should be living a life of giving and helping others. Since then, my life changed. I looked at things differently, I offered helping hands to those in need.

Ok... so now everyone noes... haha... well... anyway... yup... tt's the surface... the depth i dun wan type out... you can check personally with me...

To My Special You:
I have decided to wait on...

Love was never easy.
One has to be put through though times in order to love
Valuing you is one thing i have always done
Eternity is the word to describe my love to you

Yes... Its tough to love but i will endure it just to love you
Only true love brought me to say this...
U are the one for me. I Love You

Love it

lol... went out today with Yihui, Clive, Michelle, Shawn. lol... Hui Yee couldn't go cuz eye bleeding.. take care... haha... so we met and decided to watch movie... den realised Michelle was under 16 so cannot watch horror. den told Shawn we can go cathay and see more movie choices. so he said ok. not very long walk. bout 1km. so we walked. den i realised we were at the wrong cathay. i was talking bout The Cathay. We ended up at cine Cathay. haha... so we watched the chihuahua show. kinda hillarious. haha. in the midst of the movie. gave my sweater to Yihui as she was cold. so i was shivering. haha... ok... den after movie went to eat. met Gar fish at taka. den we went to PS cartel again. alot of laughter as always. den reached home and saw this on Yu Kiat's DP:
a=b
a^2=ab
a^2 + a^2 = a^2 + ab
2a^2 - 2ab = a^2 + ab - 2ab
2a^2 - 2ab = a^2 - ab
2(a^2 - ab) = 1(a^2 - ab)
2=1

looked at it.. den i realised it was a mathematical mistake for that to happen. cuz a^2 - ab = 0 and you can't divide an equation by 0 on both sides... haha... so 1 is not equals to 2...

and oso... Yihui made this special card for me... Thanks Yihui. Love You.
on one side, it looked like this:

From the other... it was like this:


haha... shall bring this to Melbourne with me... Thanks...
to the Special You:
No matter how long it is... i am going to wait... since it is for you.. it is worth it... i am prepared.... till the day you are ready... loving you always... and deeper by each passing day... take care while i am away... i love you...

What to do???

well... puzzled at the moment... i still try to force smiles in front of others... jus came home from scouts.. well... yihui was there... erm... so i started out reaching earlier than the rest... so sat there alone to play psp... (perhaps i have to get used to this alone kinda lifestyle....) following that... shawn came... so i decided to go into the room. so we had the leaders room key... feeling is different in tt room. afterall... i jus went in there to slack and waste time. so decided to make some notice boards for the scouts. Those you buy from daiso. so i had to put in the hooks mannually without a plier. so i did 2 boards.. and yihui's sms came... so decided to go over to talk to her. there... i continue making 3 more boards... haha.. hand really hurt.... den played with the mudskipper... fed it fish... but it din eat... played with a brown rabbit... nvr seen him b4... but.. it was rather cute... also.. i went to play bball with clive... den yihui came along... played a lil while more... shawn called... so we left... well... to yihui... i really dunno my emotions as of now... knowing very well that the year ahead i won't be able to be doing things to chase and win your heart... but my love for you is still there and won't change... i shall wait. ^.^ i won't give up... i hope... well... you should get what i mean.... anyway... thanks to jeff for the call last nite... haha.. next time... sch is more impt... i will be fine de... thanks buddy... and also to chesed who spent time talking on msn... and dong for your concern... thanks guys... well... to my brothers and scout juniors who read my blog... i may not be able to contact u all tt often and oso to see you all... if you guys wan to contact me or noe my updates... jus read my blog... it would be an avenue to talk and address your problems.... and for my S01 mates.. check your email with regards to plans for next year.

Happy or Sad?

since the last time i blogged... many things happened... i have also changed quite abit. setbacks in life are things that you have to face. they will change you and you can't change them. how unfair. well... i really wonder if i should go on persuing... can you yourself give me the answer?? you noe who i am refering to. Apart from that. i decided to dedicate my next year to a year of studies. really have to let go a lot this time. wasn't really prepared but will miss the nice people i used to hang out with. next year i won't be so on with scouting le. First 6 mths in H3 and last 6 in As. i really have to work hard. i tot over this for some time... perhaps its better that i sacrifice and persue a different dream. the dream YOU have always been wanting but failed to achieve. I shall do it for YOU. sorry to my bros for leaving on this sunday for melbourne as a mark of my leave from scouts as well. following my J2 year will be 2 years of NS. dun worry... i will be back after NS should my Uni years not be so taxing. i jus wan to persue the wish of my granddad first. its a long story. been affected by stuff lately. can't seem to smile that much. wonder wad happened.... its like the jokes that i hear people say... people laugh.. but i jus force a smile off my face... on msn... with some people... i jus appear joyous so that things seem right. with some of you... i jus try to put things aside and not spoil the mood of the crowd... well... i really dunno wad has happened.... i really feel weird and affected... can the key to my solutions appear?? or will it even come to me in the first place?

Success and thanks

Well, just returned from a chalet... a combined chalet.. haha... for the first time, i combined my 2 fav cliques of frenz together at a chalet.... My 2 cliques... LK brothers and my S01 small group. well... thanks to both groups for being so tolerent to each other... haha... erm... well.. it was a great success... great thanks to the follow people: -
MH - for behaving yourself... different from the violent you
Jus - for the laughter you gave us
Clive - for coming and being there even though its jus one night
Shawn - with the memorial videos for us
Frankie - your presence
KW - your presence
Brenda - sacrificced for the group to watch coffin.. so sorry bout the jokes bout you... but thanks for the sacrifice.. and very great thanks for bringing joy to the special someone
Danica - rushed down to meet us and spend one night with all of us... thanks for being there... haha... love bullying you.. haha... waking you up once every 5 mins... haha... erm... next time more sociable la...
Eileen - coming down for the BBQ... haha... din study lor!!!
YT - ps-ed me for teaching... haha... but still came for BBQ
William - for being very enthu and very sociable
Aloy - ever ready with games to play with us
Wei Dong - thanks for coming awhile and making fun for us
WX - for booking this chalet and running as co-planner along with me
Daryl - our supplies manager
Neo - Bday boy... haha... dunno wad to add
Yihui - always special... thanks for coming along... haha... really love being with you la... haha... the laughter we get... and you good planning for the BBQ when it was last minute... haha

well.... i hope to arrange another one of such outings for you guys again... i hope both cliques dun mind... LK brothers should be fine de... cuz u all very on de.. erm... my S01 clique... maybe must ask lor.. haha... next destination... buffet.. most likely... till then... so long... (BIRD!) lol... i mean till then... practice ur tai chi and dun spit milk... haha.... jus wait for my info... via email guys... will let you noe the plans and all...

den... a recap of wad happened...
Day 1
Night... arrived at White Sands with my clique... sorry to keep those already there waiting...
we decided to eat sth while waiting for the rest... about an hour wait... haha.. watching momorable videos from shawn and interaction time and bonding session.. haha... was fun... laughter filled.... den following tt.. the rest came.. we set off for the chalet... a long walk into our chalet at first... having arrived... 3 ppl needed the toilet.. but only got 1 toilet.. so william went first... followed by brenda den me.. haha... so later went to get movie tickets... bought 13 tickets... and sat at a hotdog fast food restaurant to eat sth... no appetite... so jus sat there.. with yihui on one table... both of us kena tua by the rest.. haha.. so she ate.. i jus sat there looking at her.. den ca arrived... called us.. den i recalled randy and his fren were with us.. so MH cheong to get 2 more tickets.... haha.. watched the coffin... sat beside yihui as usual... den jus watched... WX, Brenda, Danica, Justin were all afraid... a show with laughter as well... the scene where the guy almost kissed a girl... some one from behind gave an "ee" sounds.. real loud.. set the whole cinema laughing... den... later... WX poured pop corn on justin... damn funny... went back to chalet after movie... where i kept disturbing ca's sleep... went out for a while to get supplies for joy.. i went crazy.... sad tt yihui din go with us... haha... well... nvm... din sleep den went for cca

Day 2
back from cca to chalet with only justin and yihui... ate lunch at the same hotdog restaurant as yesterday. den went chalet to sleep... haha... yihui slept during my cca... she looked so cute la... beside her was a bed.. and on the other side a pile of mats... she chose to sleep on the floor without anything... haha... ok... woke up after sleeping.. played bridge... den went shopping for BBQ stuff and meet up with the rest... haha... well.. we decided to get some dinner... so erm ya... hotdog again.. haha... lol... ok.. den bought stuff den went back to chalet... haha... yihui left after a while... when mh was bbq-ing... den eileen, yt came... with their fren.. haha... den they had their own activity... while i join LK brothers for my other stuff... den... i knocked out.. fell asleep....

Day 3
weird... i was sleeping on the right while MH on the left... woke up... we were the other way around.. i was on the left.. he on the right..haha... couldn't explain tt... den we left the chalet... haha...

FUN FUN FUN!!!!! Love you all man... you guys make my life fun...

At this point... Aloysious.. all the best for your re-exam.. you can do it de.... haha


To my special someone.... Spending 2 days 1 night with you... is one of the best times i had... lol... thanks.. though not always by your side... but ur presence could mean a great diffference... haha... do join us forr other activities next time... haha... see you around...

UPDATE

lol... been awhile since i blogged... well.. erm.... jus update a lil... promos over... now go sch oso rot.. nth to do... today chem teacher went through answer... i think my chem screwed.. anyway... now gaming almost daily... not in the pw mood yet... think falling ill oso... freak... damn sian.. must find things to do in sch.. if not... i will jus be rotting... haha... sian... den dunno wad game to play oso... haha... well... in the midst of some planning for my group.. haha... ''NS''.. those involved will noe about it. 17 oct... will see you all... hope it will be a success.. erm... den for scouts... NPC coming... oso dunno any latest updates or wad... haha... must manage the selection le... haha... den now everyday in sch... just hope to see you smile... and if i have a chance.. den jus a short chat will brighten my day... hope you noe wad i mean... been dreaming of you in class... haha... ok.. shall end here... erm... will update again... maybe after the NS program tgt with pics if possible.

SCREWED!

fuck... 3 setbacks... one after another... its like totally fucked la... having been through chem yesterday... i totally lost my mood to push for my promos le.. den today... my bio is freak la... lost it all... now... screwed my both sciences... i really dunno wad to do le... den the third came in... not very affected by the third... was prepared for it.. but din expect it... anyway... i dun wan to ask for anything anymore... wadeva i asked... nvr turned out the way i wanted....

Best Day (CONT'D)

den at ECP, where all the fun really was... we set up our 'campsite' near the beach and jus on a basha... so we sat for awhile and were eating chips... haha... was with YH most of the time.. haha... den later we decided to go cycling.. haha... so we walked to get our bikes... ok... at this point... Yu Kiat couldn't cycle... YH had a lil phobia.. haha.. so we carried on as planned.. den Shawn taught YK to cycle... tgt with Justin and i, we accompany YH slowly at the back... den we were laughing while cycling.. making fun of YH at times.. haha,... den recalled the pri 6 times with Justin at China. haha... den we were arrived at NSRCC.. saw the most amazing... "peanut butter jelly character" haha... WX had tt picture... den we decided to go to Bedok Jetty to meet Shawn and YK. at Bedok Jetty, Some of them played stunts... like wheelies... haha... cool sia... den later... we headed back to campsite... where a few more others arrived... so YH decided to sit on one of the 'anchors' for the boundary of sth like tt... haha... wondered if she was emo.. so decided to go acc her... haha... at this point... sorry brothers if i ps you guys... so was talking the her... and like keep trying to push her off the anchor. then later... she decided to go to the beach to play water... haha... so we walked down there... den YK played skipping stones tt YH and i could succeed in.. haha... den the two of us walked along the shore line while my bros played tao pok.. haha... so we went over to take a look... after tt... we washed up... and cab to Justin's house... haah... before that..we took a few more pics.. haha... those were my fav pics... u noe why when u see them... ok... moving on to cab to Justin's house... MH said follow the true-born leader.. ok... so we followed... den we got a lil lost... but went to main road to hail cab... den they say... 14 ppl... split 4-4-4-2.. so i was with YH in the cab... arriving at Justin's house... that was the most shocking part... Shawn and MH opened the door while Clive played the red carpet... was a very funny experience.. haha... den later.. cab down to AMK hub with HS, YK and YH.. haha... was sitting next to YH... haha... almost slept... haha... was rather tired...den later... we ate at pepper lunch.. den we went home... haha... once again.. thanks to mybrothers... i really enjoyed it.. haha.... see you all around.. and YH!!! thanks for coming... you really made it special... haha... and thanks for spending the last hour of my 17th birthday with me... haha... Thanks alot...

Best Day

haha... yesterday was my birthday... haha... spent the day with lots of fun and laughter... haha... before anything... lets all have thanks to those who made it special. haha... ok... here goes...
Thanks alot to he following people:-
Clive
Ming Hui
Ah Neo
Shawn
Frankie
Quan Jin
Ray Hoe
Yu Kiat
Ibrahim
Hwee Siang
Wei Siang
Derry
Kai Wei
Jeffrey
Justin
Jie Shun
(For anyone i missed... i am so sorry)
Lastly... but the most important one... Yi Hui... Thanks alot for your time and efforts guys... Really enjoyed it. haha...
Ok... now for what happened... erm... photos will be uploaded another day... but erm... we simply met at Ming Hui's void deck to kick everything off... so we took pictures of the cake cutrting ceremony and all... was a lil late with Yi Hui so we walked to the void deck hurriedly... den greeted by a warm (platoon??? or squad?) haha.... with the morning wishes and birthday wishes from them... and a morning for madam.. haha... den cut cake and all... Clive spilled the "tong zi niao" of Shawn's... haha... first joke of the morn... den for the first time... i celebrated birthday... the was parachute(Ming Hui's bro throwing the basha down).. haha.. den we set off for ECP. den Clive realise his wallet in Ming Hui's house... so ran there to take... arrived back jus before the bus came... den we boarded the bus... was freezing cold at first... den later got used to it... on the bus.. there were a few more jokes...
1) MH was complaining about holding the cake. so Neo volunteered to take it for him.
den... Neo insulted MH
MH: don't make me hit you
Neo: (holding the cake in his hand a smiled) I got cake...

2)we joked about the chiken
3) the lamda joke

den we arrived at our destination... NTUC so we went shopping... the best part was when MH chiong to hold and stop the trolley when i let it go... it almost crashed... but MH saved the day...

haha...

Thanks Alfred

haha... alfred jus sent me an email and i copied a few words of it... here it goes:

SEPTEMBER=LOVER

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. (YH will agree to this.haha...) Hasty. Good memory. Moving,
motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.



Its not fully true.. but i had a great laugh at the stubborn part... haha... brought laughter and joy to my day...

Drained...

erm... maybe so much for being mr nice guy.. haha... i really pushed myself too hard le.. having not enough sleep jus 5 weeks before promos is jus not good... struggling in sch and finding it hard to stay awake due to my flu...i think i am going to collapse soon. and not only tt... i have been having probs with my life.. i think its screwed... (RGE) u noe who i am refering to. R- jus leave me along.. i need time to really forget it and forgive you... G- getting irritating by the moment and doing things selfishly... pls change... E- getting better.. but dun make me so worried all the time.. as for the others... such as MH(happy birthday) haha...erm... can't celebrate with you... psps... dying... WX- stop gaming and try to work hard le... Daryl - dun give up.. you are progressing. Eileen - can see you are no longer stoning.. keep it up... work on it... Cher- u spose to study de... stay focused. haha... YH- dunno wad to say... (joker) good joker.. all the best for promos... Shawn, Ray Hoe, Derry, Neo - been long since we last met... hopefully all goes fine this weekend so we can meet... Clive - always the laughter in my life... erm... looking forward to seeing you as well.. haha

jus had to say it...

when things jus seem to build up... i still try to endure and not blow up... things have come to a point where its hard not to express it... well.. it all goes like this...
Since the start of JAE. i met you... haha.. lets jus put A. so A happens to appear (I REPEAT) appear... as a nice guy... so we got along rather fine... as the time pass... i find that A is getting more irritating.. ok... lets see.. if you run ur 2.4km and claim that you have been getting good timing and den jus so suddenly, at jc level... ur 2.4km sucks. serious. and you blame wad? well... ur shoelaces was it? omg... wad a stuppid reason. anyway... i tot perhaps i would believe... den came our 10km run or i would call it the 1.5h run as much as u can buffet run. (haha). guess wad... good runner (A) ran 14 km... wow... den look at it... i ran 13km and WX did 13. WX failed his 2.4km btw... haha... i jus have nothing to say... and not jus sport A is bragging bout... even academic.
Academic.. haha... even more interesting... came from diff jc b4 jae... and claims tt the previous sch is better.. blah blah blah.. den say he doesn't wan it there due to the teacher there dunno wad... den i was like... oh... very "wei da" to come here eh? den mids came... wow... he din study and got good grades for maths... and bragged all about it... erm.. u din study? good for u... dun demoralise others by blowing it up. once or twice is enough. dun act emo to be pitied... oh.. forgot to say.. perhaps it was the jc that din wan you... ur english isn't as good.. so ya... pls... u are not perfect... dun assume you are...

F OFF!

why is everything still so crappy??? i tried so hard to stay happy... why can't happiness last? is it always sadness that fills my life... where am i destined to go? why must things always turn out rongly... things never happen the way i wanted it to... so much for being a nice guy... people never appreciates... i must stop being good le i think... i tried to help... you dun appreciate.. and always try to hurt me.. whats the point.. why try get close to me? ask for help.... receive the help.. and use the help to shoot and hurt me? forget it... no more nice me anymore... forget it... why must you always try to hurt me when i try to get things right? just fuck off la... i have my own control of my circle of frenz.. i choose who to be in it.. i think you are out... so just get lost... dun be irritating... u noe i hate irritating people... can u jus scram....

Clearing things out, letting it out

perhaps you really dunno... well... i jus hope u dunno... so i won't have to be so angry... as time goes on... things changes... i have my things to be busy with.. and so do you.... i try so hard to accommodate for everything i set out to do... i try to make everyone happy... to help others... well... after awhile... i realise tt its too much for me to manage and cope.. den later... i decided perhaps... i should let go... den you were the one who stopped me... i trusted ur view... in hope that i still have some backing when i need it.... however... things are different... we always have different view points...we always quarrel... wads the point... it seems better for me to run my own life and stay committed for others... and break off from the block so as to be away from the nagging and groaning and the draggy stuff from you... well... it seems better than to jus run on like a crazy animal down my life trying hard to balance all out when it is always impossible... the tot of giving it all up and running my life myself is back again... if anybody can get me the answer pls help me... i really dunno wad to do le... at times.. i feel left out... at times.. i fell i should give up... when all else are not right... i jus feel like ending it all.... forget bout me ba....

It never stops!!!

Haiz... why must it be me? i ask myself? jus 6 months ago on 8 January 2008, the doctor told me my condition was stable... everything is under control and that jus under constant medication i would be fine! i followed the instructions and all... everything was jus working out fine till yesterday... i realised it has not left me... i was always with me... being inside me... why can't i get it out.. it always returns.. no matter wad i try!!! i really feel like giving up... the feeling sucks when you have it with you... Its difficult to manage it... you have to note very troublesome matters to ensure it is under control and all that crap... why can't it jus leave me alone... let me have peace? will you? jus let me go... How i wished my life wasn't like this! why must i be the one?!

Orbis

Sth i found on eileen's blog.. haha.. made me laugh a lot... haha.. thanks for the laughter

1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Put comments in brackets after the song name.

5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?

Evil - Toshiro Masuda (the person will hate me...)

2.How would you describe yourself?

Put your head on my shoulder - Golden Oldies (Lol.... not for everyone de)

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?

All I Have To Do Is Dream - Golden Oldies (lol... i dun even noe....)

4.How do you feel today?

Complicated - Avril Lavigne (lol... am i complicated? maybe...)

5.What is your life’s purpose?

Sealed With A Kiss - Golden Oldies (only 1 faithful person can do tt...)

6.What is your motto?

I Love How You Love Me - Golden Oldie (haha... tt shall be my new motto)

7. What do your friends think of you?

He's a Pirate - Klaus Badelt (haha... am i one?)

8. What do you think of your parents?

One of us - ABBA (haha... sounds logical)

9.What do you think about very often?

Flaming Racoon - Wizet (haha... i love fire!!!)

10.What is 2 + 2?

Empty - The Click Five (lol... if only the qn was 2 -2 )

11.What do you think of your best friend?

The Incredibles - NYJC Band (lol... my best friend is?)

12.What do you think of the person you like?

The Wind Beneath My Wings - Various Artist (LOVE YA!!!)

13.What is your life story?

Perfect World - Simple Plan (Lol... Cheating myself here....)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?

To the pirates cave - No artist (Lol... too many POTC song!)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Only You - The Chipmunks (haha... how cool... u noe its only le lor...)

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?

Tonight I Celebrate My Love For You - No Artist (haha... coincidence?)

17.What will they play at your funeral?

Eyes on Me - Final Fantasy VIII (lol... all looking at my dead body... haha... how nice.)

18.What is your hobby/interest?

With You - Chris Brown (haha... die... my secrets are all out.. its kinda true.)

19.What is your biggest fear?

Cannon (O2 version) - O2Jam (haha... a difficult song... but not my greatest fear...)

20.What is your biggest secret?

一人一半 - 881(haha... it is???)

21.What do you think of your friends?

Flashing Winds - (oops... they come and go?!? no....)

22.What will you post this as?

Orbis - Wizet (Fine lor.. no link de...)

23.What song would you play during your first time having sex?

I Got High - Afroman (OMG!!! that is so not right...)

Great Day!!!

Lol.. today well.... got back GP and Econs.. meaning to say... ya.. all results le lor.. haiz... nth much ba... so far.. only chinese fail!!! why! nvm.. grades are as follows:
(for the MYE Paper)
Maths - A
Chemistry - B
Biology - C
Econs - C
GP - C
MT - S
lol... chinese!!! sianz... anyway.. calculated my score for Uni admission... well... derived at about 74 pts... haha... estimate... now gotta work hard if i wan go UNI!!! still far... haha... jiayous daron... work on ur bio and econs. or MT oso can... well... got to put in effort le... haha... den after sch.. wait before that.. in sch.. wei xiang asked a very lame qn...

WX: How many alphabets are there in the alphabet series?
Daron: 26?
WX: ET left the alphabet series... How many alphabets are there left?
Daron: 24?
WX: Nope. 21 left.
Daron: Why?
WX: Haha... ET left with the UFO. So total of 5 alphabets left... Haha!!!
Daron: -.-///

lol... the stupid joke we make in class... haha... ok... now after school.. went to meet Mrs Tay. haha... den got to realise that i was appointed as students' IC and that i will do co-ordination. haha... den WX and Daryl had to go to council and raise flag... haha... den i went home.. haha... well... thats all for today lor..

A change!!!

Well... today perhaps a change in my mood le... haha... well.. early in the morning went to Kovan Mac to teach cynthia.. haha... den teach till daryl came den we started talking and cynthia decided to slack.. haha... den danica came and we started pw... so cynthia disappeared for like almost 1 hour? haha... well... after that... we decided to stop pw... den have fun by gaming... den internet error... so practically everything cannot work... den danica did her maths.. haha... mugger!!!! well... jus received an invitation by Mrs Lau to teach her niece biology.. haha.. cool... ok.. den back to today.. well.. went back to montfort for CCA meeting.. initial mood "sianz"... haha... den saw MH and all.. den joke a lil.. haha... den sir came.. so started meeting... kinda dry.. so ya.. jus listened.. den he suddenly offered the sch leaver the role of ASL.. haha.. den after meeting spoke to us.. well.. its kinda great to be offered the role.. i would gladly take it.. but was hoping all 5 of us could be ASL tgt.. ibrahim and jeffrey.. pls come back leh.. haha... well.. now can go purchase uniform with tie if i am keen on taking for more than a year as an ASL.. den next year rover oso.. haha... cool... got so many things progressing.. my colours in my life are finally starting to appear... YAY!!!

All is fine?

well... today nth much.. decided to try forget the sad things and starting getting things done. so i started to do AEI for my survey results. had to find some reasons to support certain figures. Of course we have to twist the thing to fit our project... anyways.. Thanks a lot Eileen for sending me the email last nite. It goes like this:

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon,
everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL :
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less

'In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.'
- Mother Theresa

Well, maybe i should not be affected by the soil coming down..i should work my way out... Thanks a lot to those whom have been there for me during this period of time. Thanks to:
Eileen
Elaine
Joanne
Rainald
Moontree (for moral support and drive my probs away)

well... more about today... gamed the whole day while trying to do AEI for survey... den i got bored and went exploring the net for other games... nth nice to play.. so back to Cabal... Punched the whole day.. lvl from 50 to 93 le... still got 75 more... haha... long way ahead to reach com. but i shall endure... it helps me pass time. also, tmr a day off.... maybe can cheong abit more... den tmr got PW meeting ma? haha.. wanna do some work le... using work to get over the sadness and stress in me... i need to put in effort to step over the soil remember?? haha... can't wait to transcribe with my group again.. all the fun we had... tgt with cleo and WX... haha... trying to make out words and trying our very best to type fast.. haha... the great times i had in sch... oh ya... on friday morning WX and i reported for morning exercise but realise that daryl was missing. den run/walk the 3K joking and laughing our way... WX ran with a sweater.. and its not pink. how amazing. WX's comment. I wore a sweater to make me sweat. haha. den showered in the sch toilet with cold water. cold as water cooler water. haha.. the great times i had in sch... haha...

CRAP! (Part 1)

haiz... well... finish school today jus to realise that i lost something. a something very precious to me. well. if its fated. i say i have to let go. well... this is life... when you have to jus let go... also... i finally had some talk with my mum. din really help much though... i feel like breaking down. questions that i ask myself, is it my study method that caused my pathetic grades? or was it the letting go of studies during the hols. well... i had to let go of studies during the hols. with my CCA and my relaxation time. if i really carried on in the hols. i may be mentally too stressed for now... jus what went rong? i really cannot find the answer... a psychologist cannot nvr treat himself. well... i began to wonder if my life was really meant to be into medical studies or even a degree? could i live past this 2 years and make it into a uni for medical course? or to a uni but for other course i have no interest in? or should i go into a diploma and come out to work? who has the answers? i am really lost. Having crapped my way out in school, and not putting in effort in sch... with friendship probs... and all that crap.... i should really jus cut myself out and submerge myself into some form of serious study. perhaps to end my additional family? cut off all my gans... i should go to an ordinary jc life where its sch sch and sch only. so wad if life is short... perhaps in my this life i was pre-destined to die of over-study... well.. so be it... since life is fixed from the start of it. at birth.. my path was made... perhaps... at this point in time as i type... it was already planned 16 years ago when i entered the world... i was made to take a step and path planned by the above... so be it... if i have to take the challenge i take it on with full force. if i have to end my life miserably... so be it... i cannot take it anymore... things have never been the same since that day.. things screw up... problems come up... life start to suck... people start becoming irritating and fucking arrogant. my friends i turn to(WX/D) are losing the enthusiasm in studies. people whom i once trust now i lose trust in. with the constant lack of sleep and all.. things jus won't go right. have i been sacrificing too much for others? my sleep time sacrificed when i talk on the phone?

CRAP! (Part 2)

wad are my priorities? why should i be so bothered about my certain people? (HY) if u really understand do sth bout it... have i been to bothered bout others that i left myself out? i try to fulfil everyone's wishes. Granddad wishes a grandson with a degree... here i am suffering for it. Dad wants a successful son in doctor field... here i am trying to produce it. Mum throws full trust in her elder son to be a degree holder, here i am struggling at it. Rain wans people to cabal with him, i spend time on it. Teachers expecting hw to be done. i rush them through. MW wans me back at CCA to improve the unit and troop... i promise and do my best. Shawn expecting more input from the ventures with his crude words, i try to comply and make thigns work out. If they wan all these so badly, can they at least look at how many other things people want? at least understand how much i am going through... all they say is... its only tough for this 2 years... ok.. so its tough... wan see its tough till i drop dead one day? attend my funeral ok? pay me a last visit. WTF. teaching my fellow schoolmates and classmates is something i enjoy doing. it helps me... i learn from them as well... these are the people whom have really contributed largely to me even though they have wishes from me.i enjoy helping them as i benefit largely from them and seem to enjoy the time spent with them. thanks alot to the following people: (in no order of merit)
- Eileen
- Chesed
- Grace
- Cynthia
- Chermaine
- Wei Xiang
- Daryl
- Danica
- Cleo
- Brenda
Thanks guys for helping me...

Also, people whom have always been there for me and bring joy into my life:
- Wei Xiang
- Daryl
- Eileen
- Yen Teng
- Jia Qi
- Danica
- Elaine
- Ibrahim
- Valerie
- Clifford
- Hui Yee
- Joanne
- Ling Yee
- Limei
- Joey
- Cindy
- Most importantly Jolin
Thanks for being of great help to me....

Bio paper

Well... maybe today wasn't a really good day. the day started out real bad when i receive a call from someone... and tt got me very pissed... to the person who offended me.. well... jus think before u make any comments next time... i shall forgive you... den went for lessons... well.. got bio paper back.. a very great setback again.. i got a C... how sian... now was jus hoping my common day papers can help pull my grades.. den i realised... GP grades need to be good for me to pass... my both common test were rather bad.... haiz... den went to transcribe the interview.. had a lot of fun there... keep joking and laughing... trying to make out the words... lol... well... so far my papers are like:
Maths - A
Chemistry - B
Biology - C

how nice.... i wished i had really put in more effort...

Why doesn't anyone understand??

well... got back my papers today. for maths and chem.. well.. not very to wad i expected. the result were good. i noe. but no one unds how i feel. to me, one competes only with one self and not others. this goes to say... so wad if u are the first... you can't meet ur standards and defeat urself, u are useless... well... i would say... i am rather disappointed with myself... and some ppl jus dun get it and keep claiming that the result i obtained had no reasons to be sad at. Well, V,I... i dun wan to name the names... but erm.. jus be sensative to others feelings... ur words could be hurting at times... and... well... if an improvement of a mark is still an improvement... congratz to ppl whom have improved (D/WX). Keep up the good work... and for ppl in my class... its been clear that there are people whom i really cannot stand... well... WX asked me a qnestion in PE today.. and i find it true.. haiz... Like what i deduced. There are people who need attention and people who want attention. A need is something someone cannot make do without... a want is something luxury.. hopefully people change... kick off that want of urs... maybe people will start to accept you. when u notice people starts ignoring you or give you short answers. Think about it. what went rong... dun keep going on.. it makes ppl hate u even more... Well, anyway whats done is done and cannot be undone... (D/WX/I) shall work hard from where we left off and work for better grades and meet our expectations for promos...

Btw, my grades were:
Maths - A
Chemistry - B

LOL

You are almost like a life coach for your best friends.
You give them help when they need it... but you also know when to give them a push.

People tend to rely on you for moral support and advice.
You've probably always been mature for your age, so this is a role that's you're comfortable with.

A friend like you is one of the rarest kinds.
You are both a good mentor and companion.

Your friends need you most when: They are confused or worried

You really can't be friends with: Someone who only wants to complain

Your friendship quote: "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

Haha.. came across a test... i kinda agree partially with the results... but i dunno... is this true about me??? haha.. be glad if anyone could give me the answer... haha... btw... TEM... here's the post... haha... and well... mid year has jus passed.. a kinda weird feeling i have been having during the papers... i kinda doubt my ability... OMG.. i oso dunno sia... i find bio and chem manageable. den GP and MT die... my econs is ok and my maths i am a lil afraid.. well.. its over... there is nothing much i can do...


There is still something on my mind affecting me really. Only the person noes what is going on. I noe you are trying. but... its jus different... give me some time...

My Hols are here

haha... how great... my hols jus started... sianz... jus lost like a week and a half le... left with 2.5 weeks to enjoy... wait... nxt week cca... omg... only these last few days to play.. and i got a lot of things i wan to do... haha.. yay... 14-16 going overseas... haha... m'sia though.. haha... will blog bout tt if possible too.. haha... making this post specially for the someone... who complained i last posted 2 mths ago and tt she post everyday.. haha... updated for you le la... haha.. u noe who u are.. haha.... well well... tired tired tired... nvr have enuff sleep de...

Confusion

well... as i was doing my PI today... something came across my mind... haha... so here it goes...

With my grow circle of frenz... i find that i classify them into different categories... haha... a list i have made is below...

Family (they are those who are always beside u. they are those who are willing to listen to u shout and all but still forgive you. They understand ur problems) [members] my immediate and secondary family. my god siblings... thnx alot...

True brothers ( They are those who walk with you, see you fall and hold u up to prevent u from falling...)[members] my scout mates, fellow ventures of MKSG. thanks alot for holding me for the past few years. preventing me from falling. thanks brothers.

Brothers (They walk with you, watch you fall, hold you up after the fall and ask about you. The are always willing to assist you and help you.) [members]my C56 and HKP... lol.. thnks brothers... hope to do well with you all...

Great friends (ppl whom you can hang out with and fulfil certain things... usually with a purpose in mind and a common goal. [members] certain classmates, clifford, kim, chermaine, arthur. thanks alot for sharing a same goal as me.

Friends (ppl who i hang out with and have no purpose... we jus hang out once in a while. have fun.... ) these are people of montfort i know.. ... and my remaining S01 pals... see you all around ba...

well... the list runs up to here... anything lower is not very nice to say.... well.. should you want to noe... the above list is in order from the top to bottom is the best to good. haha.. and if u wan noe which category u belong... can ask me.. haha...

well... i think post enough le.. haha.. its time to do PI again.. haha.. lets go on.. haha... back to my fav slogan...

ABCDEFG
A Boy Can Do Everything For Girls
GFEDCBA
Girls Forget Everything Done, Changes Boy Again

How true... btw... lizard... get well soon.. haha...

Great day

lol... wad a great day today... haha... meeting.. ok... as usual... except today change 5 patrols... alot of admin to settle... so troublesome... den had to teach the formation to all the SPLs... well... a lil slack for meeting la... my mind wandering else where... haha.... den after school... went for lunch... well... got ibrahim's reply... he won't be continuing scouts... how sad... a loss to MK. anyway... we had fun.... especially ibrahim... finally said wad was in his heart... haha... confessed everything. den later clive MH and i went walk walk around the opp sch area...den we found a card dispenser... haha... and guess wad... we played with it... well... got a few cards. and we sure looked stupid... a bunch of 17 yr old playing with a card dispenser machine... haha... let me show u... haha....

(my fav)

(spongebob with mirror)
(patrick)

(funny pic)

(the back of the card)


Den... ok... as promised... i will put up some of the jokes that i heard before... haha... TOP 3 jokes...

No. 3
Three men were standing in line to get into heaven one day. Apparently it had been a pretty busy day, though, so St. Peter had to tell the first one, "Heaven's getting pretty close to full today, and I've been asked to admit only people who have had particularly horrible deaths. So what's your story?"

The first man replies: "Well, for a while I've suspected my wife has been cheating on me, so today I came home early to try to catch her red-handed. As I came into my 25th floor apartment, I could tell something was wrong, but all my searching around didn't reveal where this other guy could have been hiding. Finally, I went out to the balcony, and sure enough, there was this man hanging off the railing, 25 floors above ground! By now I was really mad, so I started beating on him and kicking him, but wouldn't you know it, he wouldn't fall off. So finally I went back into my apartment and got a hammer and starting hammering on his fingers. Of course, he couldn't stand that for long, so he let go and fell-but even after 25 stories, he fell into the bushes, stunned but okay. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I ran into the kitchen, grabbed the fridge, and threw it over the edge where it landed on him, killing him instantly. But all the stress and anger got to me, and I had a heart attack and died there on the balchoy."

"That sounds like a pretty bad day to me," said Peter, and let the man in.

The second man comes up and Peter explains to him about heaven being full, and again asks for his story.

"It's been a very strange day. You see, I live on the 26th floor of my apartment building, and every morning I do my exercises out on my balcony. Well, this morning I must have slipped or something, because I fell over the edge. But I got lucky, and caught the railing of the balcony on the floor below me. I knew I couldn't hang on for very long, when suddenly this man burst out onto the balcony. I thought for sure I was saved, when he started beating on me and kicking me. I held on the best I could until he ran into the apartment and grabbed a hammer and started pounding on my hands. Finally I just let go, but again I got lucky and fell into the bushes below, stunned but all right. Just when I was thinking I was going to be okay, this refrigerator comes falling out of the sky and crushes me instantly, and now I'm here."

Once again, Peter had to concede that that sounded like a pretty horrible death.

The third man came to the front of the line, and St. Peter asked for his story.

"Picture this," says the third man, "I'm hiding naked inside a refrigerator..."


No.2
A young blonde was on vacation in the depths of Louisiana. She wanted a pair of genuine alligator shoes in the worst way, but was very reluctant to pay the high prices the local vendors were asking.

After becoming very frustrated with the "no haggle" attitude of one of the shopkeepers, the blonde shouted, "Maybe I'll just go out and catch my own alligator so I can get a pair of shoes at a reasonable price!" The shopkeeper said, "By all means, be my guest. Maybe you'll luck out and catch yourself a big one!" Determined, the blonde turned and headed for the swamps, set on catching herself an alligator.

Later in the day, the shopkeeper is driving home, when he spots the young woman standing waist deep in the water, shotgun in hand. Just then, he sees a huge 9 foot alligator swimming quickly toward her. She takes aim, kills the creature and with a great deal of effort hauls it on to the swamp bank. Lying nearby were several more of the dead creatures. The shopkeeper watches in amazement. Just then the blonde flips the alligator on its back, and frustrated, shouts out, "Shit, this one isn't wearing any shoes either!"


No.1
A rich millionaire decides to throw a massive party for his 50th birthday, so during this party he grabs the microphone and he announces to his guests that down in the garden of his mansion he has a swimming pool with two great white sharks in it. 'I will give anything they desire of mine, to the man who swims across that pool.'

So the party continues with no events in the pool, until suddenly, there is a great splash and all the guests of the
party run to the pool to see what has happened.

In the pool is a man and he is swimming as hard as he can, and the fins come out of the water and the jaws are snapping and this guy just keeps on going and the sharks are gaining on him and this guy reaches the end and he gets out of the pool, tired and soaked.

The millionaire grabs the microphone and says, 'I am a man of my word, anything of mine I will give, my Ferraris, my house, absolutely anything, for you are the bravest man I have ever seen. So sir what will it be?' the millionaire asks.

The guy grabs the microphone and says, 'Why don't we start with the name of the bastard that pushed me in!'

kk... MH... here u go... haha... if i can get some more... will update... and... a slogan i picked up...

ABCDEFG
A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl

GFEDCBA
Girl Forgets Everything, Den Changes Boy Again

Jus an update

haha... jus to post a few of my recent pictures for to very special ppl... (bell and flor)... haha... here u go

Change

haha... wad an interesting day... haha... went for duck tours at noon today and noe more about singapore... haha... wow!!! lol.... den went safra for bowling... haha... well... played with the house ball at start... den my dad got me a bowling ball... omg... i bought a finger tip ball... haha... den tried to play with it... din really noe how to play using a finger tip ball.. so lots of gutter... but still manage to pull a strike and hit a total of 80 pts... i noe its nnot very good... i am still learning... haha... i posted a few pictures of my bowling ball, shoes and bag... haha...

Orientation

lol... tmr orientation... haha... well... before tt.. i better tok bout today... ok... today was like a very short day... haha.. woke up at like 10 plus or was it 11... haha... den backache.. haha... ok... den nvm.. changed up and left home to Plaza Sing for movie... watched the screen... well... kinda scary ghost... but nice show la... haha... bout the roll of film for ghost.. haha... ok.. den back home for dinner.. haha... ok.. now for tmr... well... day 1 orientation tmr.. haha.. gonna have fun.. well sadly not in cetus le... now in orion... i wan cetus...nvm... accept the truth.. must learn new cheers.. haha... and a lot of orientation games tmr... haaha... hopefully can have fun lor.... and maybe the someone noes.. i miss u the whole day la... nvr sms me much... u like disappear le lor... haha... good thing u are fine....

lol... for alvin once more...

lol.. jus in case alvin is wondering... well... ya... alvin... good job in planning the movie... very sorry i couldn't make it... family matters and cca on tt day. would definitely like to join u all some day... haha... den well... i noe u dread this.. but no choice... alvin... how's cycling.. have u learnt? go learn leh... we want cycle again soon.. haha... go online search how to cycle... or spend some time lor... den pegasus7 can go out cycling again tgt... den can cover more distances tgt... haha...

New lead

lol... i see... the result for ranks are out... we have 5 SPLs, 5 PLs, and 5 APLs... well... my personal comments... those that are up to it... din seem to make it this time... even with the open slots... its hard to find people to take on the role... haiz... also, now tt timetable is out... i can only go scouts every sat... friday i end at 3.30p,. so sad... den i got just to take over... haha... good luck sec 3.. u got the fittest venture for ur training.. job week coming le.. i need earn money again.. but orientation crash leh... very sian... dunno if i can still hold my gold bumble bee... and den... back to scouts... yup... this cohort of leaders... (15 ppl) not all from sec 3. so the sec 3s, you guys better be prepared... the nxt parade we have, as in muster parade.. i believe its going to be a long one. swearing in of sec 1s, promotion of SPLs, PLs, APLs, and promotion of Ventures. den we have giving out of progress badges and proficiency badges... i expect ppl to faint this time... haha... nxt year even better,... got rover crew coming... haha... well... signing off soon le ba... oso nth to rite.. i wonder who reads my blog regularly... haha... i seldom see regulars coming to my blog except my scouts... haha... den erm ya... sec 3s, once again..be prepared... dun think too highly of urself... not all is given and not all expected received... den.. ur training is going to be tough. david. go source for a sana and water conservation course... either david or bryan... den ur can carry on ur training... if not its abit difficult...

ok... wait... haven been toking bout JC life... haha... well.... timetable out.. everyday oso very late finish... den got napha test coming up.. must train somemore... i haven buy my running shoes... must go get a pair of running shoes... den i can go on the tracks.... also, muscles to be built... i think i need hire justin to be my private instructor... haha...jkjk... well... den with all this.. i leave sch daily at about 6 to 7... so poor thing... den bio even more to manage... now toking bout mitochondria and all i getting abit blur le... den chem is still so slow... haha... ok ya... my class 1s01 got the elite teachers i think... all fierce and strict... but very good teachers.... i pity irwin... he noes wad i mean... haha... 1s05... brace urself ba... well... getting ready to study hard le... den found out my GC inside got games.. haha... abit bo liao... nth to do.. den did a lot of crapping with ibrahim... sorry.. it was a joke.. haha... and i din send ok... haha... well... i won't be tt bad la... and JC life is fun i would say. going to buy orientation package soon... finally can get my uniform le.. den well... tmr long day ahead... i need to prepare my tutorials and lecture notes... get to meet the teachers to find out how elite they are.. haha...

Update

lol... well... i have been tagging for the past few days... but haven really blogged... haha... sorry... not very free... anyway... lets see... very sad due to last friday cannot go CCA and den this fri no CCA. den last sat we did lots of crap... haha... and well.. went to TM to have fun... lots of laughter... even on the bus back to hougang... can never forget tt day... den this sat CCA.. got parade... finally a formal parade for vetures... my foot drill oso rusty le... den got badge presentation and swearing and blah blah blah... haha... sec 3s pass their pioneering le... congratz... den sec 2.... work hard.... first aid coming soon... sec 1s i oso dunno wad is going on there... den... well... monday started sch... rather glad tt i got my combi i wanted... haha... 4H2 MCBE... wahahah... tgt with aloy and wx.. oso... den we went through a day of lectures... tgt with irwin, edwin and the rest... den today oso the same.... a tiring day... but interesting... the lessons all got cut short due to electrical and technical failure.... and i realised sth... i need to sit in the front row to stretch my legs... if not very pain... oso, today my first time having a pe lecture.. and tmr need to listen to nike talk... oh ya... we had lots of jokes in sch today as well.. haha... ok... signing off... very tired... bye... haha...

back to start

lol... posting results out le... i oso dunno why i so happy today... haha... first thing in the morn.. i found out i got posted to SR.. den i very happy and cannot seem to fall back to sleep.. maybe the fact that studying at SR would keep me energetic after sch is making me happy. studying at NY is very draining to my energy due to the long breaks between lessons... haha... and back to SR means meeting old frenz... and that another surprising thing is that i am in the same OG with WS and tt's cetus 5... omg... i think cetus will rock... haha... so happy today... and tmr start sch le... yes.. can't wait to boulder again... haha.. also, studying at SR would mean friday is a CCA day.. and i can go back to montfort for scouts... haha... i believed my scouts would "love" to hear this.... haha... this is so interesting... haha... i sure have a lot of time with sec 3s now... haha... and also, i can focus on the FCSS more now...

Fun Day

lol... today morning woke up tt time was 0730. overslept. haha. cheong to mac to meet shawn. den had breakfast. we played pokemon. haha. den later went to the pool for swim. started out well... at about 0915am. den swim too long.. tired... so wash up. 1145 tot of going justin's house for a short game on PS2. den we met at shawn's house at 1 plus. reach justin's house at 1340. den we swim again. did springboard diving as well. haha.. sure was fun. stopped at 1500. den we went sauna. play with water inside. kept singing song... laughing all the way... haha.. stop aat 1600 for a shower till like 1630. den had dinner? or lunch. haha... anyway thanks justin. till 1710 i think.. bought snacks and hang out behind somewhere. haha... very fun... it was a day full of laughter and joy and jokes... haha... i think i will truly miss the ventures (senior) when sch starts on wed... haiz... wad to do?? lesser time to see u all le... and MH will be planning a chalet for SV.. haha... good luck with it... oh ya... sec 2s pass their swim le... i think... sec3... you all had a lot of fun.. and david... kena kick by bryan.. haha... den i think almost sink... haha... oso, at justin's house... we did have a lot of fun... doing the springboard diving... derry with his wolf cry... shawn with his monkey 360. haha... MH and his sumo... my blackout... justin?? i dunno... laughter? den we saw a bald eagle trademark move..."taking the prey" haha...

The fun i had

haha... well... today post got few things to tok bout.. ice still giving me tt kinda looks... haha... although i dun mind... haha... and always finds it funny... haha... made fun of ice tt morn when she said she had dinner the night before... as in dinner... erm... restaurant? haha... i told her... i have dinner every nite.. haha... sorry.. nth to do at tt time.. haha...
well well... today went back to CCA... haha... had a lot of fun.. took the sec 1s, haha... wanted a friendly talk with them... they like very scared of me... i talk alot of crap den they all blur... sorry bout tt guys... not bad la... i like this batch of sec 1s... respectful i call it...
den for my pathetic sec 2... i got 3 ppl for attendance.. interesting rite? den i decided to call off meeting for them.. haha... got them to do KYD... den they left... also, they came backi after walking awhile.. i was rather surprised... so ask them to talk.. haha....
den for my sec 3s even more fun... i designed a very crappy structure... den got them to tie... haha... i have a purpose in mind ok.. i noe its impossible to finish the structure when they started at 2.30... if they did it at 1.30... it would have been possible. they started at 2.30... should finish by 5.30... so i decided to test their endurance and check the knots... haha... guys... frankly, u knots still lose... and u must have determination to finish a structure... dun take ur time.. den u can complete it de... i assure u all... work hard.. we will try again... do think of more designs that can take lesser time. den got more time to play on the structure... you all were a lil slow to start... taking ur own sweet time when i told u all to carry things... den think ur all got alot of time. and always dun eat recess... den CCA u all die... better take sth nxt time.

weird day

haiz... i seem to be very emotionless today... or maybe i had emotions... jus too many till i cannot really determine ad is the true emotion. haha... morn assembly... saw ice and she gave me a kinda strange cold looks... den later went for lessons and all.. by CT... i was tired.. decided to watch ppl play basketball. some were very good... haha... lots of comments bout ice.. but shan't say here... haha... maybe in another post.. specially dedicated to her... like the one for alvin.. haha.. also, after tt... went for lunch... tt was the happiest moment. haha... out of sch.. short term joy though... den i had fried fish soup with lots of chilli... haha... den later bought sweets... den went to library read stupid stories and wanted to sleep and finally went to chinese... along the day... dunno when... rain pissed me off... spoil the day... decided not to talk to him for some time... haha... till now still a lil sian of him.. haha... hope he noe wad to do... and change ur bad habit...

For Alvin

lol.. this post dedicated specially to alvin.. haha.. jus a question.. how's ur cycling coming along? haha... if u can cycle... good job.. if not.. haha... ur favourite phrase... Go Learn.. haha.. den we can cycle together... ok.. anyway... not very free lately.. so if pegasus got any outing planned... do let me noe in advance... i will try my best to go.. no promise... but very likely i will go...

Sincere Apologies

lol.. i seriously have no idea why and what caused you two to think that way... anyway.. to cheryl and SC and perhaps yvonne, i am terribly sorry if for the past few days i gave you all creeps... i noe its weird but i jus simply want to sit at tt flight of stairs with no apparent reason to stalk at you 3... also, being in the same school, is it rather likely that we will meet along the way. and if u dun like it,.. i will simply jus take another route. also, pls do not misunderstand that we wanted to follow you 3 today. it jus so happen that we cross the over head bridge and realised e were at the rong side of the road. also, we did not plan before leaving sch. so we jus anyhow decide to go to AMK. and, there was this man who asked for directions at the bus stop. and tt explains the delay.. which ever way u all wan see it.. i am fine... i will keep my distance.. and jus take it tt its my fault this time round. My believe is that if it was fated for us to meet and be frenz there was a certain link e had in the past... haiz... you won't unds.. jus that.. i believe that knowing u 3 is seriously not a coincidence. but all that was planned by the above. haiz... i dunno which other way of explaining myself... but i noe u 2 are still mad at me... haiz...

Tired

lol.. back to sch again... its like 2 days of sch... tmr last day of lessons only.. but the previous week left me in a very tired state... haha... i had like 6 days of school and waking up early.. den sunday whole day got activity... today in sch very tired... was wide awake for bio lecture and econs seminar,... haha.. bio teacher like to joke alot... haha... he is the only teacher that has made me laugh so much.. haha... had a great impression from him... oso heard he was from montfort... not sure if he was a student or teacher.. haha... den econs seminar oso rather interesting... people signed for oth ppl attendance... den the teachers oso blur.. haha...and then.. in class... i made fun of rain and GP.. haha.. rain noes wad i mean... haha... wonder if u decided on P or GP.. happy choosing... and i made a frend after so long.. haha... vitoria if i din spell it rongly... haha... her looks reminded me of someone... haha... and rain had a good time toking to her... haha... for pe... went to hall.. exempted..yay... den sat aside... saw dom and went to atch him play piano.. met ice there... i noe her and she still dunno me... haha... she still couldn't figure out my nick..haha....

Sad things in life

lol... i jus witness like 2 of the sad things in life today... firstly my sec 2s got scolded by me... haha... sorry guys... din wanted to.. but you guys have to really work for what you want... i shall give you all another chance to do the tent. better do a good one. nth much to comment for you guys. and then, the sec 3s... you guys started the pioneering well... i tot all was fine... then i realised all you guys gave me was crap. btw.. i believe david will read this. so if u really do.. pass the info to the rest. ok... i tot you all can ork well as a section.. you come show me quarrels... you all use vulgarities.. scold parents of one another... pls... it is still a uniform group. i expect better discipline. i will give you all another chance to do pioneering tower again. this time, we shall have another 2 people to lead. you need to lead a patrol for you pioneering to pass the badge. david and bryan pass for that. the rest have yet to. pls sort this out.

Goodbye

lol... sad sia... had to leave my fellow pegasus in SR... but no choice la... i had my own way of doing things... i leaving for NY and staying there... so ya... had to leave all of you... haha... no worries pegasus 7... i believe we will hang out again soon... sure had fun cycling on monday... hhaha... alvin.. go learn!!!! haha... den we can cheong bike together.. haha... it was fun la... i am so gonna miss u all... but no choice... i have to leave... lets jus hope i can settle down in NY asap lor... den no need to troublesome again... and i hope 1S05 can still go on without me... anyway i am not very prominent in that class... so ya... see you guys around.. and keep in contact...

Finally...

lol... finally the wait for my results is going to be out... it will be this thurs.... 24th... i really cannot wait on... i want to leave this place as far as possible. i dread the class... haiz... jus waiting for my results and hopefully all will be over... wonder how's my results... and strange thing is many ppl dun wan their results... i dunno why... i feel tt after all we have been through so much for jus tt fews papers. might as well see the results and decide the nxt path and not wait on... no idea how they think. lol... pegasus outing is finally going to happen again... i have got only 2 major groups of ppl from SR i hang out with. pegasus 7 and cetus PL. no others... haha....

Reunion

lol... its been awhile since i last tag... sorry guys... busy lately... lol... jus went back to my troop. lol... discipline of it sucks completely. haiz... what must we do so that it can be back up to the elite standard?? what is the fall factor?? haiz... anyway... today went to take stock for rifle range. lol.. reunited with some of my long lost ventures. well... our unity is still there. we had fun... hacked down certain stuff.... and tied MH up to act out SAW.... but impromptu and teacher came. so my show spoil... cannot go on. we will redo it again. haha.. after meeting went for lunch. played our usual old sports/game. "boat". haha... no kamikazi this time. i took the lead and won first followed by MH den jeff. lol... MH caught up in the end.. haha... wonderful times i have in scouts... will never forget them... haha... i believe i will pledge my true loyalty to the troop if everything can improve. lol... very hard to tell my fellow scouts... how i feel... what i want them to be... its very hard for u all to understand... i hope that Montfort Knights will not continue dropping in standard... haiz... for MK we shall all work for the sucess....

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Korea Trip 07

Dinner in Korea
Outside Safari World
Me and Shield
Mummy plate
Polar bears around a lightning rod
Me and Panda
Well... had a very enjoyable trip this time... very fun... but as camera man cannot take much pics of myself... haha...

End of sth and start of another

lol... today we finally got bonded as a group... more interaction and talking le...but sadly... today our last day as an OG... from monday onwards... no more OG... all classes le... haha... well... after sch went PS for movie... AVP2... lol.. dunno why all of us like saddist like tt... haha... anyway... good luck to all in pegasus 7... wish u all the best... and see u around... pegasus 7 rock.... especially (WS).. haha... we all noe wad tt means...

A late post

(1/1/08)
Happy New Year to all... tmr all start school le... 4E1 pls remember to sign ur report books and return to A. Low... haha... some still stayiing in Montfort... i going SRJC... Staying in Montfort seems better... more friends... but i must move on... Bo Bian.... haha...

(2/1/08)
1st day of school... very boring... my school orientation is academic first... started to listen bout subject talks.. sit on hall floor till ass hurt... all complaining.. haha... but we ended early... bout 1... haha...

(3/1/08)
today bought a collar pin... got a form for combi choosing,.. haiz... decided to go SMCB/_ course... best for me le... haha... hopefully can settle down fast in tt combi... haha... kk... update soon... hopefully... busy lately...