Thanks Alfred

haha... alfred jus sent me an email and i copied a few words of it... here it goes:

SEPTEMBER=LOVER

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. (YH will agree to this.haha...) Hasty. Good memory. Moving,
motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.



Its not fully true.. but i had a great laugh at the stubborn part... haha... brought laughter and joy to my day...

Drained...

erm... maybe so much for being mr nice guy.. haha... i really pushed myself too hard le.. having not enough sleep jus 5 weeks before promos is jus not good... struggling in sch and finding it hard to stay awake due to my flu...i think i am going to collapse soon. and not only tt... i have been having probs with my life.. i think its screwed... (RGE) u noe who i am refering to. R- jus leave me along.. i need time to really forget it and forgive you... G- getting irritating by the moment and doing things selfishly... pls change... E- getting better.. but dun make me so worried all the time.. as for the others... such as MH(happy birthday) haha...erm... can't celebrate with you... psps... dying... WX- stop gaming and try to work hard le... Daryl - dun give up.. you are progressing. Eileen - can see you are no longer stoning.. keep it up... work on it... Cher- u spose to study de... stay focused. haha... YH- dunno wad to say... (joker) good joker.. all the best for promos... Shawn, Ray Hoe, Derry, Neo - been long since we last met... hopefully all goes fine this weekend so we can meet... Clive - always the laughter in my life... erm... looking forward to seeing you as well.. haha

jus had to say it...

when things jus seem to build up... i still try to endure and not blow up... things have come to a point where its hard not to express it... well.. it all goes like this...
Since the start of JAE. i met you... haha.. lets jus put A. so A happens to appear (I REPEAT) appear... as a nice guy... so we got along rather fine... as the time pass... i find that A is getting more irritating.. ok... lets see.. if you run ur 2.4km and claim that you have been getting good timing and den jus so suddenly, at jc level... ur 2.4km sucks. serious. and you blame wad? well... ur shoelaces was it? omg... wad a stuppid reason. anyway... i tot perhaps i would believe... den came our 10km run or i would call it the 1.5h run as much as u can buffet run. (haha). guess wad... good runner (A) ran 14 km... wow... den look at it... i ran 13km and WX did 13. WX failed his 2.4km btw... haha... i jus have nothing to say... and not jus sport A is bragging bout... even academic.
Academic.. haha... even more interesting... came from diff jc b4 jae... and claims tt the previous sch is better.. blah blah blah.. den say he doesn't wan it there due to the teacher there dunno wad... den i was like... oh... very "wei da" to come here eh? den mids came... wow... he din study and got good grades for maths... and bragged all about it... erm.. u din study? good for u... dun demoralise others by blowing it up. once or twice is enough. dun act emo to be pitied... oh.. forgot to say.. perhaps it was the jc that din wan you... ur english isn't as good.. so ya... pls... u are not perfect... dun assume you are...

F OFF!

why is everything still so crappy??? i tried so hard to stay happy... why can't happiness last? is it always sadness that fills my life... where am i destined to go? why must things always turn out rongly... things never happen the way i wanted it to... so much for being a nice guy... people never appreciates... i must stop being good le i think... i tried to help... you dun appreciate.. and always try to hurt me.. whats the point.. why try get close to me? ask for help.... receive the help.. and use the help to shoot and hurt me? forget it... no more nice me anymore... forget it... why must you always try to hurt me when i try to get things right? just fuck off la... i have my own control of my circle of frenz.. i choose who to be in it.. i think you are out... so just get lost... dun be irritating... u noe i hate irritating people... can u jus scram....

Clearing things out, letting it out

perhaps you really dunno... well... i jus hope u dunno... so i won't have to be so angry... as time goes on... things changes... i have my things to be busy with.. and so do you.... i try so hard to accommodate for everything i set out to do... i try to make everyone happy... to help others... well... after awhile... i realise tt its too much for me to manage and cope.. den later... i decided perhaps... i should let go... den you were the one who stopped me... i trusted ur view... in hope that i still have some backing when i need it.... however... things are different... we always have different view points...we always quarrel... wads the point... it seems better for me to run my own life and stay committed for others... and break off from the block so as to be away from the nagging and groaning and the draggy stuff from you... well... it seems better than to jus run on like a crazy animal down my life trying hard to balance all out when it is always impossible... the tot of giving it all up and running my life myself is back again... if anybody can get me the answer pls help me... i really dunno wad to do le... at times.. i feel left out... at times.. i fell i should give up... when all else are not right... i jus feel like ending it all.... forget bout me ba....

It never stops!!!

Haiz... why must it be me? i ask myself? jus 6 months ago on 8 January 2008, the doctor told me my condition was stable... everything is under control and that jus under constant medication i would be fine! i followed the instructions and all... everything was jus working out fine till yesterday... i realised it has not left me... i was always with me... being inside me... why can't i get it out.. it always returns.. no matter wad i try!!! i really feel like giving up... the feeling sucks when you have it with you... Its difficult to manage it... you have to note very troublesome matters to ensure it is under control and all that crap... why can't it jus leave me alone... let me have peace? will you? jus let me go... How i wished my life wasn't like this! why must i be the one?!

Orbis

Sth i found on eileen's blog.. haha.. made me laugh a lot... haha.. thanks for the laughter

1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Put comments in brackets after the song name.

5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?

Evil - Toshiro Masuda (the person will hate me...)

2.How would you describe yourself?

Put your head on my shoulder - Golden Oldies (Lol.... not for everyone de)

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?

All I Have To Do Is Dream - Golden Oldies (lol... i dun even noe....)

4.How do you feel today?

Complicated - Avril Lavigne (lol... am i complicated? maybe...)

5.What is your life’s purpose?

Sealed With A Kiss - Golden Oldies (only 1 faithful person can do tt...)

6.What is your motto?

I Love How You Love Me - Golden Oldie (haha... tt shall be my new motto)

7. What do your friends think of you?

He's a Pirate - Klaus Badelt (haha... am i one?)

8. What do you think of your parents?

One of us - ABBA (haha... sounds logical)

9.What do you think about very often?

Flaming Racoon - Wizet (haha... i love fire!!!)

10.What is 2 + 2?

Empty - The Click Five (lol... if only the qn was 2 -2 )

11.What do you think of your best friend?

The Incredibles - NYJC Band (lol... my best friend is?)

12.What do you think of the person you like?

The Wind Beneath My Wings - Various Artist (LOVE YA!!!)

13.What is your life story?

Perfect World - Simple Plan (Lol... Cheating myself here....)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?

To the pirates cave - No artist (Lol... too many POTC song!)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Only You - The Chipmunks (haha... how cool... u noe its only le lor...)

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?

Tonight I Celebrate My Love For You - No Artist (haha... coincidence?)

17.What will they play at your funeral?

Eyes on Me - Final Fantasy VIII (lol... all looking at my dead body... haha... how nice.)

18.What is your hobby/interest?

With You - Chris Brown (haha... die... my secrets are all out.. its kinda true.)

19.What is your biggest fear?

Cannon (O2 version) - O2Jam (haha... a difficult song... but not my greatest fear...)

20.What is your biggest secret?

一人一半 - 881(haha... it is???)

21.What do you think of your friends?

Flashing Winds - (oops... they come and go?!? no....)

22.What will you post this as?

Orbis - Wizet (Fine lor.. no link de...)

23.What song would you play during your first time having sex?

I Got High - Afroman (OMG!!! that is so not right...)